Pregnancy Update- 36 weeks.

I am 36 weeks!!

I hesitated posting this picture, because I think it is misleading. In real life, I am HUGE. I promise. Someone at the YMCA told me yesterday afternoon that "Everyone is staring at you while you are on the elliptical, because you are VERY pregnant. Are you going to go into labor right now? You are making us all uncomfortable."

Oh. Thanks.

Really, I am fat. 

I have done an awful job documenting on the blog, but I keep up with my pregnancy every week in this precious book. I kept one with Lily, too, and I have the Birthday versions. LOVE. 

This has been a great pregnancy. I am lucky, and my body steps it up when I am pregnant. Just a few remarks about 36 weeks:

• Reese moves A LOT. Constantly. All of the time. 
• She is already head down!
• I have to pee every 3 minutes.
• I crave sour candy, DOTS (that gross rubber candy that people don't actually eat), citrus, jolly rancher suckers. Of course, I also want pizza, pasta, and ice cream- but those are normal, non-pregnant cravings, too.
• Barbecue makes me nauseous.
• I have no swelling, stretch marks, heartburn, and my blood pressure is crazy low. Thank you, body. 
• I do have a difficult time sleeping at night- just from being pregnant, having to pee, Reese moving constantly, trying to stay on my side, starting to FREAK out about the fact that I am actually having a baby, etc...
•  I have gained probably close to 30 pounds, with the potential for more!
• Her nursery is almost finished!

Lily talks about Reese quite often and has actually played with a baby doll that my Mom got her. She isn't a baby doll kinda girl, but she has enjoyed taking care of "Baby Reese" doll.
"Mama, Baby Reese is already here. She just popped out. That's just food in your stomach."



 Lily comes with me to most of my appointments, which means she has been introduced to peeing in the cup. The other day, I walked into her bathroom, where she was squatting over a pink cup, peeing. 

"Oh, hi Mom!" 

she said nonchalantly,

 " I am just playing doctor's office."

At my last appointment, she said, "I can write your name on the cup." And she did. Precious. 

I am starting to get excited!! I am also terrified, of course. But, I never thought I would actually be almost/sort-of...ready? To have a second kid? Lily was a VERY difficult transition for us; to say we were blindsided would be an understatement. We were completely unprepared mentally for becoming parents. I never thought I would be really ready to be a mommy to a second baby. But, my excitement at meeting her and getting to know her personality grows every day. It's going to be okay. It's going to be okay. We can do this. We can do this. 

If I repeat that enough, maybe it really will be okay? ;)